16 Mar 2008
6:37 pm
"and now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
1 Corinthians 13:13.
The speaker tday at church touched on love in every aspect. One thing that struck me most is that love is nt what the world seems to portray it, especially what we see in films and television programmes. but love is more than that, and he reminded me of what love should be.
He also made us do a rating for ourselves, to judge ourselves on where we stand, in our relationships with people, parents, spouse, children and our enemies. he talked about random acts of kindness, which is really what we need to keep doing to the people around us, be it the church member, youth leader, pastor, parents, siblings and spouse. or it could even be to people that we meet on the streets.
The few criterias are all taken from 1 Corinthians 13.
Love is.. (marks i give myself upon ten to see where i am)
patient (2)
kind (7)
not jealous (2)
not boastful/proud (6)
not rude (6)
does not demand its own way (9)
not irritable (9)
keeps no record of wrong (5)
rejoices with the truth (9)
never gives up (4)
always hopeful. (7)
wow. seems like i'm so not perfect. i realised just how dumb i've been living my life for so many years. i look back and remember the countless times i screamed at my parents for "not understanding" me, times where i have looked down on others, times when i did not give the respect and always thinking i'm so great, times when i seemed impatient with so many things and people, especially her. and yes. i've hurt people who i thought i loved. so many, i can't keep record of them anymore.
you know, when the speaker came and said all these, i looked at myself thinking how dumb i've been the whole past month. yea, i said i didnt want us to be tgt and that i respect you, yet i let myself be influenced and pressured you to get closer when i knw i shouldnt. yea, i may have pressured you to "get tgt" with me in many ways i thought i didnt. i just craved for you to feel the same way i feel towards you. but i guess i went way overboard, till it's nt as comfortable as it should be. i guess i'm not perfect. and if i lose you, i could say i deserve it.
i also want my parents to know that, well, though i've been the worst son i could be, creating trouble, not helping out, always blaming you and not respecting you as parents to make the best decisions for me. yea, i'm wrong. i've always beem jealous of sis's results, and her ability to do way better than me affects me alot, though i always try to hide it. comparing aint that fun, and yea, i knw you want the best for me, for my life. so i have failed you so far.
lastly, it's you oh Lord who i wanna apologize. i knw you've been there for me my whole life, probably why i've put you for granted for so long. i failed you in so many ways, and the implications of my actions may have been destructive. i always hoped to serve you well, but i guess i lack the fundamentals. yea, i knw the verses, knw the songs, serve in the main band and many look up to me, but i havent really put that to good use. i keep judging others, creating a whole "characteristic" of one without knwing them. and i knw i've done wrong. i may have the talent, the skill given from you. but if my heart is not set right before you, i am wrong, WAY WRONG. and so Lord, thanks for forgiving me. i knw you have, and you always will, cos yr love is perfect. yr grace is sufficient. and i knw ive taken it for granted time and again, but Lord this time i'll try my best to make it right before you.
=DD i love you Jesus, deep dwn in my heart.
Hosanna, You are holy and exaltedHosaana, You are high and lifted upHosanna, you are worthy of all praiseWe worship You, We worship You.How great You are, How great You areYou are the mighty King, And You've come to reign in meHow great You are, How great You areI give you all the praises of my heart.
yea. after service was worship prac. i rehearsed with the singers for the first time and again, bro keith asked me if i wanted to support sing. hmmm, Lord, give me an answer?
OHYA! i didnt knw i was more of a tenor than alto. HAHAHAHA. all these while i got mixed up. and yea, singing parts is sooooo not easy LAH. hahahas. i si need training. HAHA (:
16 Mar 2008
6:37 pm
"and now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."
1 Corinthians 13:13.
The speaker tday at church touched on love in every aspect. One thing that struck me most is that love is nt what the world seems to portray it, especially what we see in films and television programmes. but love is more than that, and he reminded me of what love should be.
He also made us do a rating for ourselves, to judge ourselves on where we stand, in our relationships with people, parents, spouse, children and our enemies. he talked about random acts of kindness, which is really what we need to keep doing to the people around us, be it the church member, youth leader, pastor, parents, siblings and spouse. or it could even be to people that we meet on the streets.
The few criterias are all taken from 1 Corinthians 13.
Love is.. (marks i give myself upon ten to see where i am)
patient (2)
kind (7)
not jealous (2)
not boastful/proud (6)
not rude (6)
does not demand its own way (9)
not irritable (9)
keeps no record of wrong (5)
rejoices with the truth (9)
never gives up (4)
always hopeful. (7)
wow. seems like i'm so not perfect. i realised just how dumb i've been living my life for so many years. i look back and remember the countless times i screamed at my parents for "not understanding" me, times where i have looked down on others, times when i did not give the respect and always thinking i'm so great, times when i seemed impatient with so many things and people, especially her. and yes. i've hurt people who i thought i loved. so many, i can't keep record of them anymore.
you know, when the speaker came and said all these, i looked at myself thinking how dumb i've been the whole past month. yea, i said i didnt want us to be tgt and that i respect you, yet i let myself be influenced and pressured you to get closer when i knw i shouldnt. yea, i may have pressured you to "get tgt" with me in many ways i thought i didnt. i just craved for you to feel the same way i feel towards you. but i guess i went way overboard, till it's nt as comfortable as it should be. i guess i'm not perfect. and if i lose you, i could say i deserve it.
i also want my parents to know that, well, though i've been the worst son i could be, creating trouble, not helping out, always blaming you and not respecting you as parents to make the best decisions for me. yea, i'm wrong. i've always beem jealous of sis's results, and her ability to do way better than me affects me alot, though i always try to hide it. comparing aint that fun, and yea, i knw you want the best for me, for my life. so i have failed you so far.
lastly, it's you oh Lord who i wanna apologize. i knw you've been there for me my whole life, probably why i've put you for granted for so long. i failed you in so many ways, and the implications of my actions may have been destructive. i always hoped to serve you well, but i guess i lack the fundamentals. yea, i knw the verses, knw the songs, serve in the main band and many look up to me, but i havent really put that to good use. i keep judging others, creating a whole "characteristic" of one without knwing them. and i knw i've done wrong. i may have the talent, the skill given from you. but if my heart is not set right before you, i am wrong, WAY WRONG. and so Lord, thanks for forgiving me. i knw you have, and you always will, cos yr love is perfect. yr grace is sufficient. and i knw ive taken it for granted time and again, but Lord this time i'll try my best to make it right before you.
=DD i love you Jesus, deep dwn in my heart.
Hosanna, You are holy and exaltedHosaana, You are high and lifted upHosanna, you are worthy of all praiseWe worship You, We worship You.How great You are, How great You areYou are the mighty King, And You've come to reign in meHow great You are, How great You areI give you all the praises of my heart.
yea. after service was worship prac. i rehearsed with the singers for the first time and again, bro keith asked me if i wanted to support sing. hmmm, Lord, give me an answer?
OHYA! i didnt knw i was more of a tenor than alto. HAHAHAHA. all these while i got mixed up. and yea, singing parts is sooooo not easy LAH. hahahas. i si need training. HAHA (:
