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if there is any doubt that i don't, i do love you. I DO. :))))

smile, cause i'll be there for you. i will!

=)

just got news.

woah. was super tired last night that i kinda konked out and fell asleep from 745-1015 and then 12-1015 this morning. WOAH, and i was still tired. =P

went to church to do our shirts for refresh! ministry that is gnna be launched tmrw! WHEEEE.
God pls bless our ministry as we grow and learn in Christ.

am like super tired nw la. spent like 5 hrs doing the shirts. next week again, bt overall it was a good experience and i did my shirt. YES! the trouble. =DD

well, that is all i have for you. nights. =)

there can be miracles
when you believe

COMMENDATION DAY!
the sights of seeing frens going up and a speech by principal wasnt smth to look much forward to, but ohwells, at least the talk was meaningful. =D

waited in school for the longest time, before clarence ended his guitar ensemble meeting and damien finish his op rehearsal.

your smile takes my breathe away.

GNIGHT. off to bed again.

the teachers are like milo tins
we are like the milk sweeteners. hmmmm. WEIRD.

yhihhuua was like SOK KOON is the sweetener. HAHA.

went cafe. was gnna ask more ppl along, but guess what? when ccc ended, poof, all gone. HAIZ.

i've got destiny and purpose
i've got everything i need
cos his love is everlasting
and his spirit sets me free
ive got joy that lasts forever
and a peace you can't conceive.
JESUS
he lives inside of me.

=DDDDDDDDDDDDD

stressful week i guess. HONESTLY STRESSFUL WEEK.
finally, a reprieve tmrw when all the other groups have to do their OPs. it's like OP is on next wednesday, and after that, the difficult point is OVER. haiz. i jus wish it comes soon. =D

ccc tmrw again, but only some short teeny weeny briefing. hmmm, anyone wnna go out tmrw after that DUMB briefing? hmmmm. let's see la.

it's gnna be an ultra early night i guess. i'm so damn shagged alr. well, at least i'm gnna have another year of this. but it's a choice and so i must strive on! i must. =))))

"A Lonely September"

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

thanks yhihhuua and hweeyee for the dinner. enjoyed it, throughly. and i'm honest. =DD

had a fun time jamming this afternoon at church. practiced this one song that's fast and upbeat. bt i forgot the song alr. HAHA. it's jus a great honour and blessing to serve Him, right?

PW lessons for the next few days. HAIZ, and chinese too. honestly, i hope to pass it. HAHA.

having the peace of God is something that i always wanted, but have never seemed to hold on to it for long. there were times when i could communicate with Him so easily, but now i feel like i'm just not giving him enough time everyday. i must pray more for my frens, cause honestly after the holidays begin, there wont be much opportunity to share the truth of God.

this week has been rather chaotic. so many submissions, so much work to be done. phew. at least the first OP went rather smoothly, though i kinda screwed up here and there. God, help me to do well for it. I need yr grace. =D

MORE EYE CONTACT WITH AUDIENCE PLEASE! HAHA. IT'S TIME TO OWN THE LAST LAP OF PW.
oh Lord, help me pass this chinese A level paper. EVEN A SUB-PASS IS GOOD ENOUGH. i cant make it for chinese at all la. it's my WEAKEST. heh. help meeeeeeee!

btw, it's glad to see that you enjoyed the honey i made. =D glad that you're well, and SMILING AGAIN!

yhihhuua, dont cry anymore. things happen cause they were made to happen, and sometimes we cannot have any say in what happens, and that is life. we cannot decide what we get in life, and if we could everyone would choose joy, peace and happiness. but God planned our lives so much so that everything is done for a purpose.

i knw yr mother's rather horrid to you. to think she did not even remember your birthday is harsh enough. but it could be possible that she remembered, but just could not bare to say it to you. or maybe the world has been too harsh for her and she cannot release the anger on anyone but you. i knw the feelings suck, and yes, yr mother's love for you before was amazing. i cant imagine if my mother turned mad one day because the love she gives me is also very much, but honestly from the bottom of my heart, all i can say is although you cant change it, there are people around you who care. so many. to name a few, leslie, clarence, charlotte, bryan, damien, teressa, etc. SO MANY! go look for us, im sure we'll offer a listening ear and a hug. dont worry, k?

pray to Jesus, cos he can help you. HONESTLY.

hey
sorry for what i said, honestly, i didnt mean it la, just wanted to tell you to sleep well and have the beauty sleep.
it was my fault, said the wrong thing. should be more sensitive to girls laaa, but what you said cannot be proven wrong too. so yea, please forgive me k?

youre EXTREMELY beautiful to me and i honestly dont really care abt looks, but what is inside. and what is see is beauty, ultimate beauty. please forgive me. i feel so dumb bad la. OHMAN. God, help me to be more sensitive.

-pouts.

is running away the best possible way?
i keep thinking, bt then it aint right to do so.
ohwells, guess i'm jus plain blur la huh.
GOD I NEED YOU!
how come it seems like when i have problems then i would turn to you? WHY?
honestly, help me nt to fall into that again oh Lord. this is my prayer.

last night was quite a wonderful time spent with roy. it's been so long since ive met him and so long since we went out to queensway and ikea, smth we used to do very commonly during SAS days. ohwells, ate those lovely swedish meatballs again, like we always do, and walked ard queensway countless times. sat down and chatted with him, and he told me abt his life in SAJC and this wheeyouweet girl, cindy. HAHA, cindy's gnna meet him ltr tday, lucky boy. bought a man utd waterbottle for charl and then went home like ard 1030 la.

now to the bus part.
OMG, the bus was filled with like SO MANY CHINAMEN. they all boarded at bugis and they were talking very loudly. i was sandwiched in btw two of them and they kept on talking la. even when i was listening to almost max volume on my iPod i could still hear them.

Journey home from queensway was extremely long, ard 55 min, due to the jam along geylang road. it started ard kallang that side, so you could guess hw bad it was. it was due to the hari raya celebrations along malay village there la, and the bus was like SUPER FULL! haiz, oh wells, reached home and slept early last night - 1230!

oh yar, i read this article on the shooting in Ohio and it kinda pains me to see them doing such things there. it is like 26 cameras didnt catch him and the metal detectors were not even on. WHY INSTALL THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE, i wonder. hmmm, and it is like the guy's probably demonic or smth, cause i read that he worships marilyn manson, the "reverend" of the church of satan. God, help this world, which is like being destroyed by these type of ppl. OHMAN. HAIZ.

2 Timothy 3:1-4: (KJV) "This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good, Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God."

Luke 17: 26-30: "And as it was in the days of Noah, so shall it be also in the days of the Son of man. They did eat, they drank, they married wives, they were given in marriage, until the day that Noah entered into the ark, and the flood came, and destroyed them all. Likewise also as it was in the days of Lot; they did eat, they drank, they bought, they sold, they planted, they builded; But the same day that Lot went out of Sodom it rained fire and brimstone from heaven, and destroyed them all. Even thus shall it be in the day when the Son of man is revealed."

Let's be aware that the time of His return is near. Amen.

check this out when free:
http://www.bible.com/bibleanswers_result.php?id=217

it's maths tmrw, bt i dont feel it. haiz. i jus hope i can score well.

by God's grace, yhihhuua. HAHA.

LET'S DO THIS GUYS. WE CAN DO IT! GOD BLESS =)))))

wooooooot!

hello everyone.

it's been a rather good and bad day for me. i really wonder leh, whether a chance to redo this maths exam is actually good or bad for me. haiz i wonder la, if it is good then wheeyouweet to me! at least i have another chance to OWN an exam. HAHA, bt oh wells, im rather careless and im not too sure with some concepts. a little bit of reading thru will really help though. bt im rather lazy to do another paper. i mean it is like im in such a holiday mood alr, hw to pick up? hmmm. =/

HELLO TO YOU! =D din get a chance to say hi in school tday, so here it is!

SMILE PEOPLE, CAUSE WE SERVE A GOOD GOD!
oh btw, yhihhuua, yr hair rocks la, (im a poor liar) it makes you look errrrr, INDESCRIBABLE. =P HAHA. k nw it's time to go meet leslie at east coast park to study. i have to cab home laaaa, oh wells, i really need to study though. msg me if yr bored? THANKYOU PEOPLE!

Till the End!

All these precious moments
with you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night
i dont know how i found you
i'm thankful that i have
now that i have a love so true
to hold, to keep, to share


All my friends around me say
You'll be gone too soon
In the end im gonna make them see
we'd found our way back home

in my heart,
i can no longer hold inside
all of the love i used to hide
i'll always be with you until the very end
in this world,
there is no place i'd rather be
you are my life, my soul, my girl
and through it all i know you'll come to see
that you're the one,
till the end.

anyways, tday was quite an EVENTFUL day. ohwells, sundays are always eventful huh? YAY!
spent alot of time in church, and songlead for youth service too. was not nervous at all even though it's my first time, but not too bad lar. anyways, we went toa payoh lor 8 for lunch and then some came over to have a chit-chat session at my place.

went over to grannys for dinner, saw my baby cuz JOEY! so cute i tell you, jus a little tiny laaaa. scary. =D oh wells, then we went IKEA! bought back a WHOLE lot of rubbish and now my room is a little nicer to see than before. YAY!

the thing that made my day was that my dad told me the board at church is rather impressed with me! and ive been earmarked to be a future leader. OHMAN! God, please guide me! dont let me move away from You, EVER! for nw i hav an option to sit in for board meetings. crap, should i? it's like 4 hours long. HAHA, we'll see. =)

life has its good, but life also has its bad.
sometimes you win and other times you lose.

oh wells, been trying to busy myself with activities since promos ended. practically did not have the time to come online till like now. since that day, although i seemed happy on the outside, i really felt lost inside. i was trying to do things that would make my life happy again, to forget that. but i could not. either i was reminded of it by what i saw, or when i was alone and my mind started to wonder. wonder what if, what if things had not turned out this way. but life has its times of winning and losing. this time i was on the losing side.

i feel like dying and going to heaven.

am in serious need of a hug.

i'm sorry. so sorry. i shouldnt have done what i did to make you compromise. i just wished you will felt the same way. wells, too bad for me. i will stop, i will.

that's the end of me you'll see, at least for now. i only ever wanted you to be happy.

life has its many pains, many struggles.
there are two types of struggles:
one would be the physical and the other the mental.
often times in our modern day life, obstacles faced are mental, and it is hard to break these obstacles. we get dragged down by circumstances, by standards set by others or by ourselves, and face many doubts of whether we're good enough.

but always remember that we hav God. He is our source of strength.
I recently had to hear many stories of people dying. First it came charlotte's teacher who's rather young, then the grandfathers of two of my classmates. i also heard stories of people suffering, like families facing the pain of seeing their loved ones sick. and it pains me to hear them. It reminds me that God gives, and he takes away too.

It reminded me of the Columbine incident, where gunmen went out to their own school on a killing spree. When i watched the video of Rachael and her life-giving sacrifice, i cried. When the gunman pointed that gun at her and asked her to deny Christ, she chose otherwise, and paid for it with her life. But her actions brought much awakening to people, and many of her frens got saved, jus because she said yes to Jesus, yes to his love. She gave her life, a life that many frens said was beautiful. God took it away, bt it was meant to be because so many people became children of His after that.


We look at things from one perspective, bt have we looked at it from the other side?

a personal msg to a special someone:
thanks for sharing with me your faults. It's great that you identified them and wanna change for Christ. Jesus loves you so much and jus rely on him for strength. there are so many people out there who can help you change. trust in Him and let him slowly mould you and change you. Dont get paranoid and start blaming yrself. I knw it is hard, bt you CAN do it! Keep trusting in Him and draw strength from Him, for he is our Daddy! you can call me or sms me anytime. I love you, i really do.

that's all i hav to say tnight. it's alr so late and im not exactly super ready for physics.


to all the people having papers this week, ALL THE BEST!

btw, pray for leslie. He's kinda dwn with food poisoning. real bad. tc leslie. =)

darren's the name
srjc
drummer
071190 - birthday.
080407 - day i was reborn.

if there is any doubt that i don't, i do love you. I DO. :))))

smile, cause i'll be there for you. i will!

=)

just got news.

woah. was super tired last night that i kinda konked out and fell asleep from 745-1015 and then 12-1015 this morning. WOAH, and i was still tired. =P

went to church to do our shirts for refresh! ministry that is gnna be launched tmrw! WHEEEE.
God pls bless our ministry as we grow and learn in Christ.

am like super tired nw la. spent like 5 hrs doing the shirts. next week again, bt overall it was a good experience and i did my shirt. YES! the trouble. =DD

well, that is all i have for you. nights. =)

there can be miracles
when you believe

COMMENDATION DAY!
the sights of seeing frens going up and a speech by principal wasnt smth to look much forward to, but ohwells, at least the talk was meaningful. =D

waited in school for the longest time, before clarence ended his guitar ensemble meeting and damien finish his op rehearsal.

your smile takes my breathe away.

GNIGHT. off to bed again.

the teachers are like milo tins
we are like the milk sweeteners. hmmmm. WEIRD.

yhihhuua was like SOK KOON is the sweetener. HAHA.

went cafe. was gnna ask more ppl along, but guess what? when ccc ended, poof, all gone. HAIZ.

i've got destiny and purpose
i've got everything i need
cos his love is everlasting
and his spirit sets me free
ive got joy that lasts forever
and a peace you can't conceive.
JESUS
he lives inside of me.

=DDDDDDDDDDDDD

stressful week i guess. HONESTLY STRESSFUL WEEK.
finally, a reprieve tmrw when all the other groups have to do their OPs. it's like OP is on next wednesday, and after that, the difficult point is OVER. haiz. i jus wish it comes soon. =D

ccc tmrw again, but only some short teeny weeny briefing. hmmm, anyone wnna go out tmrw after that DUMB briefing? hmmmm. let's see la.

it's gnna be an ultra early night i guess. i'm so damn shagged alr. well, at least i'm gnna have another year of this. but it's a choice and so i must strive on! i must. =))))

"A Lonely September"

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

thanks yhihhuua and hweeyee for the dinner. enjoyed it, throughly. and i'm honest. =DD

had a fun time jamming this afternoon at church. practiced this one song that's fast and upbeat. bt i forgot the song alr. HAHA. it's jus a great honour and blessing to serve Him, right?

PW lessons for the next few days. HAIZ, and chinese too. honestly, i hope to pass it. HAHA.

having the peace of God is something that i always wanted, but have never seemed to hold on to it for long. there were times when i could communicate with Him so easily, but now i feel like i'm just not giving him enough time everyday. i must pray more for my frens, cause honestly after the holidays begin, there wont be much opportunity to share the truth of God.

this week has been rather chaotic. so many submissions, so much work to be done. phew. at least the first OP went rather smoothly, though i kinda screwed up here and there. God, help me to do well for it. I need yr grace. =D

MORE EYE CONTACT WITH AUDIENCE PLEASE! HAHA. IT'S TIME TO OWN THE LAST LAP OF PW.
oh Lord, help me pass this chinese A level paper. EVEN A SUB-PASS IS GOOD ENOUGH. i cant make it for chinese at all la. it's my WEAKEST. heh. help meeeeeeee!

btw, it's glad to see that you enjoyed the honey i made. =D glad that you're well, and SMILING AGAIN!

yhihhuua, dont cry anymore. things happen cause they were made to happen, and sometimes we cannot have any say in what happens, and that is life. we cannot decide what we get in life, and if we could everyone would choose joy, peace and happiness. but God planned our lives so much so that everything is done for a purpose.

i knw yr mother's rather horrid to you. to think she did not even remember your birthday is harsh enough. but it could be possible that she remembered, but just could not bare to say it to you. or maybe the world has been too harsh for her and she cannot release the anger on anyone but you. i knw the feelings suck, and yes, yr mother's love for you before was amazing. i cant imagine if my mother turned mad one day because the love she gives me is also very much, but honestly from the bottom of my heart, all i can say is although you cant change it, there are people around you who care. so many. to name a few, leslie, clarence, charlotte, bryan, damien, teressa, etc. SO MANY! go look for us, im sure we'll offer a listening ear and a hug. dont worry, k?

pray to Jesus, cos he can help you. HONESTLY.

hey
sorry for what i said, honestly, i didnt mean it la, just wanted to tell you to sleep well and have the beauty sleep.
it was my fault, said the wrong thing. should be more sensitive to girls laaa, but what you said cannot be proven wrong too. so yea, please forgive me k?

youre EXTREMELY beautiful to me and i honestly dont really care abt looks, but what is inside. and what is see is beauty, ultimate beauty. please forgive me. i feel so dumb bad la. OHMAN. God, help me to be more sensitive.

-pouts.

is running away the best possible way?
i keep thinking, bt then it aint right to do so.
ohwells, guess i'm jus plain blur la huh.
GOD I NEED YOU!
how come it seems like when i have problems then i would turn to you? WHY?
honestly, help me nt to fall into that again oh Lord. this is my prayer.

last night was quite a wonderful time spent with roy. it's been so long since ive met him and so long since we went out to queensway and ikea, smth we used to do very commonly during SAS days. ohwells, ate those lovely swedish meatballs again, like we always do, and walked ard queensway countless times. sat down and chatted with him, and he told me abt his life in SAJC and this wheeyouweet girl, cindy. HAHA, cindy's gnna meet him ltr tday, lucky boy. bought a man utd waterbottle for charl and then went home like ard 1030 la.

now to the bus part.
OMG, the bus was filled with like SO MANY CHINAMEN. they all boarded at bugis and they were talking very loudly. i was sandwiched in btw two of them and they kept on talking la. even when i was listening to almost max volume on my iPod i could still hear them.

Journey home from queensway was extremely long, ard 55 min, due to the jam along geylang road. it started ard kallang that side, so you could guess hw bad it was. it was due to the hari raya celebrations along malay village there la, and the bus was like SUPER FULL! haiz, oh wells, reached home and slept early last night - 1230!

oh yar, i read this article on the shooting in Ohio and it kinda pains me to see them doing such things there. it is like 26 cameras didnt catch him and the metal detectors were not even on. WHY INSTALL THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE, i wonder. hmmm, and it is like the guy's probably demonic or smth, cause i read that he worships marilyn manson, the "reverend" of the church of satan. God, help this world, which is like being destroyed by these type of ppl. OHMAN. HAIZ.

2 Timothy 3:1-4: (KJV) "This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good, Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God."

Luke 17: 26-30: "And as it was in the days of Noah, so shall it be also in the days of the Son of man. They did eat, they drank, they married wives, they were given in marriage, until the day that Noah entered into the ark, and the flood came, and destroyed them all. Likewise also as it was in the days of Lot; they did eat, they drank, they bought, they sold, they planted, they builded; But the same day that Lot went out of Sodom it rained fire and brimstone from heaven, and destroyed them all. Even thus shall it be in the day when the Son of man is revealed."

Let's be aware that the time of His return is near. Amen.

check this out when free:
http://www.bible.com/bibleanswers_result.php?id=217

it's maths tmrw, bt i dont feel it. haiz. i jus hope i can score well.

by God's grace, yhihhuua. HAHA.

LET'S DO THIS GUYS. WE CAN DO IT! GOD BLESS =)))))

wooooooot!

hello everyone.

it's been a rather good and bad day for me. i really wonder leh, whether a chance to redo this maths exam is actually good or bad for me. haiz i wonder la, if it is good then wheeyouweet to me! at least i have another chance to OWN an exam. HAHA, bt oh wells, im rather careless and im not too sure with some concepts. a little bit of reading thru will really help though. bt im rather lazy to do another paper. i mean it is like im in such a holiday mood alr, hw to pick up? hmmm. =/

HELLO TO YOU! =D din get a chance to say hi in school tday, so here it is!

SMILE PEOPLE, CAUSE WE SERVE A GOOD GOD!
oh btw, yhihhuua, yr hair rocks la, (im a poor liar) it makes you look errrrr, INDESCRIBABLE. =P HAHA. k nw it's time to go meet leslie at east coast park to study. i have to cab home laaaa, oh wells, i really need to study though. msg me if yr bored? THANKYOU PEOPLE!

Till the End!

All these precious moments
with you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night
i dont know how i found you
i'm thankful that i have
now that i have a love so true
to hold, to keep, to share


All my friends around me say
You'll be gone too soon
In the end im gonna make them see
we'd found our way back home

in my heart,
i can no longer hold inside
all of the love i used to hide
i'll always be with you until the very end
in this world,
there is no place i'd rather be
you are my life, my soul, my girl
and through it all i know you'll come to see
that you're the one,
till the end.

anyways, tday was quite an EVENTFUL day. ohwells, sundays are always eventful huh? YAY!
spent alot of time in church, and songlead for youth service too. was not nervous at all even though it's my first time, but not too bad lar. anyways, we went toa payoh lor 8 for lunch and then some came over to have a chit-chat session at my place.

went over to grannys for dinner, saw my baby cuz JOEY! so cute i tell you, jus a little tiny laaaa. scary. =D oh wells, then we went IKEA! bought back a WHOLE lot of rubbish and now my room is a little nicer to see than before. YAY!

the thing that made my day was that my dad told me the board at church is rather impressed with me! and ive been earmarked to be a future leader. OHMAN! God, please guide me! dont let me move away from You, EVER! for nw i hav an option to sit in for board meetings. crap, should i? it's like 4 hours long. HAHA, we'll see. =)

life has its good, but life also has its bad.
sometimes you win and other times you lose.

oh wells, been trying to busy myself with activities since promos ended. practically did not have the time to come online till like now. since that day, although i seemed happy on the outside, i really felt lost inside. i was trying to do things that would make my life happy again, to forget that. but i could not. either i was reminded of it by what i saw, or when i was alone and my mind started to wonder. wonder what if, what if things had not turned out this way. but life has its times of winning and losing. this time i was on the losing side.

i feel like dying and going to heaven.

am in serious need of a hug.

i'm sorry. so sorry. i shouldnt have done what i did to make you compromise. i just wished you will felt the same way. wells, too bad for me. i will stop, i will.

that's the end of me you'll see, at least for now. i only ever wanted you to be happy.

life has its many pains, many struggles.
there are two types of struggles:
one would be the physical and the other the mental.
often times in our modern day life, obstacles faced are mental, and it is hard to break these obstacles. we get dragged down by circumstances, by standards set by others or by ourselves, and face many doubts of whether we're good enough.

but always remember that we hav God. He is our source of strength.
I recently had to hear many stories of people dying. First it came charlotte's teacher who's rather young, then the grandfathers of two of my classmates. i also heard stories of people suffering, like families facing the pain of seeing their loved ones sick. and it pains me to hear them. It reminds me that God gives, and he takes away too.

It reminded me of the Columbine incident, where gunmen went out to their own school on a killing spree. When i watched the video of Rachael and her life-giving sacrifice, i cried. When the gunman pointed that gun at her and asked her to deny Christ, she chose otherwise, and paid for it with her life. But her actions brought much awakening to people, and many of her frens got saved, jus because she said yes to Jesus, yes to his love. She gave her life, a life that many frens said was beautiful. God took it away, bt it was meant to be because so many people became children of His after that.


We look at things from one perspective, bt have we looked at it from the other side?

a personal msg to a special someone:
thanks for sharing with me your faults. It's great that you identified them and wanna change for Christ. Jesus loves you so much and jus rely on him for strength. there are so many people out there who can help you change. trust in Him and let him slowly mould you and change you. Dont get paranoid and start blaming yrself. I knw it is hard, bt you CAN do it! Keep trusting in Him and draw strength from Him, for he is our Daddy! you can call me or sms me anytime. I love you, i really do.

that's all i hav to say tnight. it's alr so late and im not exactly super ready for physics.


to all the people having papers this week, ALL THE BEST!

btw, pray for leslie. He's kinda dwn with food poisoning. real bad. tc leslie. =)

charlotte.
jeriel.
yingwen.
joanna.
venelyn.
yiying.
domenica.
yhihhuua.
damien.
hweeyee.
clarence.
ccc.



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